Q

derwicha asked:

hey, where are you ? are you safe ?

A

hey, sorry lol I’m not sure when this was asked.  I am safe.  For the most part I’d say I’m better than I ever was, and admittedly I got bored with tumblr.  

1. Acne break out
2. Speeding ticket
3. Chronic Pain
4. Insomnia
Just a little stressed.

I find it obnoxious when my friends react negatively to my projected self confidence. As if, unless shown a contrary scenario, (something that has happened as opposed to can happen) they won’t believe in me.

Well that’s disappointing…my half of the double “date” canceled because of a grad party.

CBT worksheet
Automatic thought: I’m not good looking enough. She’d rather go to a party with hot guys instead of out with me.
Emotion: embarrassment, shame
Body Reaction: lethargy
Are you using your logic-center or emotion-center?

Emotional brain was used.

Conclusion (logic-center): I didn’t invite S, my friend invited me because his date invited a friend. I DIDN’T invite her directly. I don’t even have her contact info. She’s drinking at a grad party apparently and canceled last minute.
-SO I CAN CONCLUDE-
She’s more interested in drinking at a grad party than going on a date with me…In my imagination I can see her wanting the date over the party ONLY IF I was a 10/10 super model. Because that didn’t occur, I think: I’m not good
enough; I’m not attractive. No, just because I didn’t evoke the reaction a 10 would have doesn’t make me “not good enough.”
I know I’m attractive. I got checked out in a ridiculously obvious way by two smiley cute girls the other day. I have a (pathetic) list of compliments that say I’m attractive. I get good looks and compliments all the time.

My validation can’t be based off of one indirect rejection.

Feelings now: still disappointed but anxiety attack eliminated.

tegansenpai:

timetravellingtimelord:

theparadoxymoron:

katiefab:

cutebabe:

shipcomingthrough:

Just watch it.

oh……my fucking

No, seriously. Watch the video.

but guys…can you imagine what would happen if someone hacked the highways? 

HERE’S THE LINK TO SOLAR FREAKIN’ ROADWAYS GUYS

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SIGNAL BOOST THIS SHIT

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I want to give up

Please make it stop.

I’m having an anxiety attack and I’m suicidal :(